|--- Bullets are faster than words ---|

its great when everyone hates you.

Wed, 29 Sep 2004 20:00:15 GMT

Yeah so i haven't written in forever.

Who cares.

Not as though anyone reads this anyways.

Well I've survived the first month of school.

But barely.

I'm drowning in Pre-Calc.

I'll be lucky if i pass with a 65.

and the fucking freshman are invading our school.

half of em are sluts.
and the other half are douches.

they think theyre the fucking rulers of the school..

Like today! ..

so I'm in line.
n these two freshman whores look DIRECTLY at me..
and then proceed to cut right in front of me!

THE EFFIN NERVE.

So i go, n push em right out of the way.

Like yeah thats right bitch!

Ugh, this year is gonna suck majorly.

I know this.

.. fuck me.
hard.

~Andrea

Dear Diary...

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 16:00:02 GMT

Since when did giving up look so good?

Rainbow sprinkles, please.

Sat, 28 Aug 2004 01:06:19 GMT

Well the past week has been purty relaxing.

Went to Saratoga Springs with my Jarrod last friday
to see the horse races.

We bet on every race...
I won 4 times.
Jarrod won about a bajillion.

Tuesday was my last day at Dennys.
Oh, so sad so sad.

.. but I actually won a husky doll in the crane game that nite!!
aaahh its sooo cuuuute!! ^-^

mmm... I gave Jarrod a buncha early morning
visits this week.

He's too cute.

On to other matters,

Aria came back today.
Wooo hooo.

Had a lil reunion at the mall,
... minus Amanda.

But tomorrow we're all goin to Six Flags bitches!

Im out.

~Andrea

Dear Captain, send the SOS when were gonna go down...

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 17:12:54 GMT

Oh man,

I forgot how insanely talented Coheed was.

Stupid, stupid me.

*smacks self*

I haaave to get their first cd.

It is soo much better than their second.
(..which for some reason I chose instead)

But yeah..

Jarrod came over yesterday.

It was aweeesome.
He's awesome.
I <3 him awesomely.

OH FUCK.

So many amazing people are coming to the chance/loft/crannell!!!

eeek!

Unearth w/ The Black Dahlia Murder - Terror - Remembering Never

Straylight Run, Hot Rod Circuit

Senses Fail

Converge w/ Cave In, Between The Buried and Me, When Dreams Die, Red Devil Suit

Mae w/ Hot Rod Circuit, The Working Title, Waking Ashland (in 2 days!!)

The Beautiful Mistake w/ A Second Chance, Park, Tokyo Rose , Juniper

The Red Chord w/ Evergreen Terrace, A Life Once Lost, Fear Before The March of Flames

Anadivine w/ As Tall As Lions

... and the sad thing is i'll probably end up only going to like one of them :(

arrghh.

~Andrea

...and i knew it was just too good to be true.

Sun, 15 Aug 2004 17:05:44 GMT

This is long overdue.

But, here it goes:

To all my friends,
who have been here for me
through these past few weeks...

Thank you.

You guys have helped me so much.
And every little thing you guys
have done for me..
I appreciate to no end.

You are the greatest people I know.
And I truely thank God for
sending such amazing individuals
to be in my life.

Thank you again.

I love you all.

~Andrea

Oh Doctor Doctor can't you fix me?

Fri, 13 Aug 2004 04:53:51 GMT

Ugh haven't written for a while.

I'm once again reverting to my old xangish ways.

-.-

Anywho,

Last friday went to the city with Marion and her mom.

Twas very fun.

Shopped.
Shopped.
Shopped.

Walked.
Ate.

Yup.

Saturday was supposed to be Warped...
but things got fucked.
Work and rides and other bullshit.

So saaad :*(

Um.. yesterday Jarrod came back.
fiiiinally.

But idk things just don't seem
the same as they used to.

.. I mean.
They do..
but they don't.

I'm rambling.

I need sleep.

yes.

~Andrea

inserts catchy phrase here

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 01:04:04 GMT

Got a new cell phone yesterday.

Woot.

but i miss my old one.
it was so faithful :(

Everything's been blah lately.

I've recently gotten into all this diy stuff..
don't ask why.

but yeah.. making skirts.. stenciling tee shirts..
you name it.
i'm doing it.

Joanne's Fabrics is my second home. :D

Slept over Amanda's house last night.
Spent half the night playing Mario Party.

Cuz that game owns.

yeah.

~Andrea

Jesus <3's you.

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 03:39:07 GMT

Got my hair done in Jersey today.

Ahh it looks bad.

Oh well.

Happy One Year, Jarrod! :D

We made it this far..
so a couple of more days shouldn't be a big deal.

Welll...of to bed I go!

~Andrea

Can I just kill myself now?

Sat, 31 Jul 2004 15:47:27 GMT

Fuuuuuck.

I can't take it anymoree...

I can't.

The anticipation is really fucking killing me.

I can't believe this is even happening.

I trusted him, I really, really did.

I know in the past, I had my doubts..
but I truely had faith that everything-

everything we've been through..
everything we've shared together..
every late night phone call we've snuck..
every kiss we've had..
every stupid argument we've endured..

.. that all that meant more than,

ANY girl that he's known for a matter of a few days.

I really did.

I guess I was wrong.

But, I'm always wrong.

.. so why am I surprised?

maybe i'm not.

Maybe I saw this coming.

But maybe I didn't want to see it.

Who knows?

... our one year is tomorrow.

This just keeps getting better and better.

~Andrea

A World At Arms.

Fri, 30 Jul 2004 07:33:27 GMT

i can't believe im still up.

i can't believe anything thats happened
within the last 48 hours.

i wish i didn't have to.

These wishes mean ~~nothing~~.

-----

c E l E s 914: its like i wish i can just fly over rthere
c E l E s 914: smack some sense into him
c E l E s 914: and fuckin punch this whore into the dirt
c E l E s 914: i swear if i ever fucking meet her
c E l E s 914: ...
F13ldh0ck3y14: lol...i wanna c u do that....i'll cheer u on with that sign on ur bedrom door

<3

~Andrea

Falling.Out.of.Love.at.this.Volume

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 04:04:02 GMT

Morning bright, rise.
Go over your lines.
Iron your carefully crafted disguise.
We'd all like to sing.
It's easy to sigh; to sprinkle a handful or plausible lies.
Our buildings will rise, poke out our own eyes.
Publicly smile and privately frown.
A weeping reprise.
Please hear my cries; I'd like to pull just this one building down.
So turn off the sky.
Head in my hands.
Night keep me warm.
White window-sill.
Blinded by heart.
Cut my hair short.
"Eyeless in Gaza with the slaves at the mill."

I ATE BABE FER BREAKFAST.

Fri, 23 Jul 2004 17:13:23 GMT

Woo, yesterday was quite exciting.

Saw my Jarrod off at noon in back of
the South Hills Price Chopper.. *sniff*

Checked out the competition...
There was this one blonde..

ugh, okay Andrea shut up.
You trust Jarrod.. yes you do..

:\

I hope he's okay.
It's only been a day and
I miss his sexy ass already :)

AFter Price Chopper, I moped around at home.. made myself some Annie's macaroni and cheese.. good stuff good stuff.

Then around 5 I went over Marion's..
ate, "swam"..
Joe came over, n I asked him if his penis gets
wrinkly after swimming for a long time.
Because, see I've always wondered this.
He said no.
But I don't believe him.

Anywho, at 7 me, Marion, n Joe met Andy at the mall...
We were eating in the food court when outta
nowhere Doug pops up.

.. which was kinda creepy, since I had unsucessfully
tried to visit him at work earlier that day.

Yeah so anyways, we spent like 2 hours talking.. then finally
he left back to work and the rest of us went to Best Buy, and then Target.

Theeeen, Joe was being gay (not for the first time in his life..) and made us all walk all the way over to the South Hills mall to see a movie.. but we had already missed all of them.

So then he's like lets go somewhere to eat.. and I'm like heyy look theres a Chuckie CHeez right there.. so then being the ass he is.. he makes us all go in. I was like OH.MY.GOD.

I'm a fucking 16 year old and
I'm in fucking Chuckie Cheez playing ski ball.

~~I.NEED.NEW.FRIENDS.~~

But yeah the night wasn't even over there.. after that we walked over to Burger King, but the damn place was closed... and it was only 10:30??!

Yeah, what fucking fast food place closes at fucking 10:00??!

... well, Burger King apparently.

So yeah w/e this entry is already long and boring so I'll sum the rest up right now.

We ended up walking all the way to Dutchess Diner.. then ate a bit, then went home.

I NEED A LIFE.

~Andrea

I KNOW YOU ARE, BUT WHAT THE FUCK AM I??!

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 04:47:51 GMT

Okay what the eff happened to my background??

come back dammit, come baaackkk! ::cries::

*ahem* yeah so anyways, life has been...
er, itself lately.

Work has consumed my social life..
I barely see my friends anymore, cuz I'm always stuck with
the goddamn night shift. Aaand lately its been so dead, I get shit for tips.. :(

Though I did get my paycheck today..
..196.92! Not too shabby, if I do say so myself :)

Erm.. I finally saw Spiderman 2 a few days ago..
(against my will, mind you) with Jarrod, Marion, n Amanda.
Jarrod had free movie passes.. so I was like why the hell not?

... ehh it was alright. Don't believe all the hype.
It's not anything great.
Nothing to write home about.
Don't waste yer money.
Save a starving kid or two in Africa.
.. or not.

Anywho.. last night I got off work early and then went to Amanda's to see Confessions of a Teenage Drama Queen.

.. i know, i know I desperately need a life.
*sigh*

The movie was alrite.. kinda dumb,
but what was I expecting?

Onto other matters, my Jarrod is leaving tomorrow (or rather today?) for Europe. He'll be gone for three.whole.weeks. eeeek!!

wahhh..

me = :****(

After work tonight I went to his house and we sat out on the front porch, lit with candles and just cuddled n talked. It was so cute. I'm gonna miss himmm :(

Blargh. Imma gonna go now.

Farewell.

~Andrea

I <3 the Amish.

Wed, 14 Jul 2004 16:24:14 GMT

OKAY.

Finally have time to write.

Well all exams have come and gone..
Grades were good.. just a wee bit dissapointed in some.

Uhhmmm...

GOTTA MESELF A JOB!!!!
-fiiinally!

... um yeah, its at Denny's...
*hides face*
don't laugh :*(
But yeah I'll be waitressing and hostessing there..
soo ya'll had better come and visit mee! :D

My sister came here for a week... She bought her cat again!! Yeah it has a name now..
Scout. Like Scout from To Kill a Mockingbird..
hehe suggested by yours truely :)

Too cute, huh?

...anyways, we also went to Pennsylvania.

Alls we did was see this huuge garden thingy, called Longwood Gardens fer my mommy. It was ookay, not as bad as I thought it'd be.

Some more pics i took, hehe:

lillypads! .. no froggies tho :(

my favoritest flowers :)

eehee, banannas!..er, bananas! ... bannanas??
goddammit, never know how ta spell it!

continuing along with the food...

har har.. I just about wet myself when i saw this!

.. who knew pineapples didn't grow on trees??

... and um.. yeah I went up to my sister's house for two days and got back
yesterday. The first day was fun.. but the second day sucked ass cuz we got
food poisoning from some fucking italian restaurant.

grr...

Soo yeah that has been most my not so exciting summer thus far..

*sigh*

~Andrea

DIE JON BASEDOW. PUT ON AN EFFIN SHIRT!!

Sat, 03 Jul 2004 20:50:05 GMT

Aaargh. I haven't written in foreverrrr.

I've been sooo busy.

And alas, I can't even write now.

I'm off to Jarrod's uncle's Fouth Of Joo-Lie partay.

x_x

more later.

Zipadee Doo-Dah..

Mon, 21 Jun 2004 18:08:41 GMT

*yawn*

Me ish very tired.

Jarrod just left.. he came earrrly this morning.

The weekend was nice. My sister came down with her cat, and I fell in love with it. hehe I kept thinking of Puss in Boots! :D

Math regents is tomorrow.

I am royally fucked.

But on a good note, I get my car back in about an hourrr!!
*jumps up and down*

Wheeeee!

~Andrea

chocolate salty balls.

Thu, 17 Jun 2004 00:24:33 GMT

Directions:
1. Take five books off your bookshelf.
2. Book #1 -- first sentence
3. Book #2 -- last sentence on page fifty
4. Book #3 -- second sentence on page one hundred
5. Book #4 -- next to the last sentence
on page one hundred fifty
6. Book #5 -- final sentence of the book
7. Make the five sentences into a paragraph.
8. Feel free to "cheat" to make a better paragraph
9.Post to your blog and/or a community(or several).

_____________________________________
Take out your calendar.
Our plan to enter this business will be masterful.
To turn to matters of content, let us first
consider the problem of how bad faith is possible.
Sadly, most do not take this opportinity.
Not only do I have to clean up the mess,
but no one even knows I'm here doing it.

.. hmm muy interesante.

Tue, 15 Jun 2004 03:24:26 GMT

I sewed it up stitched all these dead end streets
Into the sewn up seams of my heartstrings unwind(unwound)
Like a petal pulled from an open flower.
Surrounds by fields where children sign but don't make a sound and don't

Break it off
This searching for what we may never find
And that says it all.
I hope that we will make it through..

The heartbreak that comes with just living through one day
All the good times that past and all the friends we lose
in a lifetime on our way.

Here in this life we seem so lost.
On this side of brightness we don't know where to go.

I hope that we can make it
Through this night.

"Baaaaah", says Frank

Mon, 14 Jun 2004 03:30:25 GMT

Melting... and bored. So i filled this out.

-10 Bands You've Seen Live-
1. Thursday
2. Coheed and Cambria
3. From Autumn to Ashes
4. Hopesfall (with Fata)
5. Straylight Run
6. Life Before This (w/ Straylight Run)
7. Senses Fail
8. The Early November
9. The Starting Line
10. Homegrown (7-10 all same show)

-9 Things You're Looking Forward To-
1. Getting mah car back!
2. Junior license!! .. enough of this gay jr. limited bullshit.
3. ..working?? weird I know.. but I am soo desperate fer a job! :\
4. Trips to NYC wif the A group
5. Some gangsta concerts :D
6. WARPED TOUR! IM GOIN THIS YERRR BITCHES!!
7. End of examss! :*(
8. ASHENNNN... hopefully we'll get off the ground.
9. D.C fair!

-8 Things You Wear Daily-
1. Clothes...
2. undies
3. Body Spray
4. black eyeliner
5. eyeshadow
6. .. ho hum
7. ... dee dum
8. .... lee daa

-7 Things That Annoy You-
1. Flies that buzz around my room at night
2. When you go to someone because you're upset.. but then they end up talking about their own problems
3. Girls that give me dirty looks for no reason.
4. When Jarrod says hes gonna call in 5 minutes.. which turns into 5 hours. grr..
5. People who think theyre realllly smart.
6. Couples that break up and get back together a million times.
7. Babies. ..yeah you heard me.. I HATEEEE BABIES!!

-6 Things You Touch Every Day-
1. My face
2. My hair
3. Door knob
4. eh.. toilet paper?
5. light switch~
6. tooth brush..

-5 Things You Do Every Day-
1. sleep.
2. EATT!
3. breathe
4. blink..
5. think.... er, come to think of it, mebbe not ;)

-4 People You'd Want to Spend More Time with or Hang Out with that You Don't Know Well-
1. NO ONE! .. I am an anti social bitch.
2.
3.
4. *nods*

-3 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over-
1. Totoro
2. Alice In Wonderland
3. Willy Wanka and the Chocolate Factory

-2 Of Your Favorite Songs at this Moment-
1. I Never Met Another Gemini- The Bled
2. Existentialism on Prom Night- Straylight Run

*1 Person You Could Spend The Rest of Your Life With*
1. Gerrrr. dammit. No idea.

.. damn this was gay.

what a waste of time.

i want a lover i don't have to love.

Sun, 13 Jun 2004 00:22:42 GMT

I've now lost the little trust i had left in him..

I never thought I'd care.

Who knew it could hurt so much?

... time for my third fudgesicle bar of the night. :/

- - -
Toni, I just want to thank you so much for listening to me. You really don't know how much I appreciate it. You're always there for me... your so awesome. ... *huggle* :)

This year's most open heartbreak.

Wed, 09 Jun 2004 20:08:16 GMT

Well this is the last week of school.

And it couldn't possibly go any slower...

oh yeah.. job search has also sucked.

thanks to our fucked up society...

Getting a job is soley based on who you know not who you are .

And i hate itttt.. x 10000000.

...~~can't i just tell life that I'm done~~ ?

~Andrea

..and stick it up yer yeah.

Sat, 05 Jun 2004 21:51:47 GMT

The soccer season is OFFICIALLY overr! ..and good riddance too. Goddamn season was wayy too long.

On another note, only 5 more days of school to go!! woot woot! :D
I can't believe it...

Every year seems to be going by faster and faster. Kinda scary :\

.. anyways, I bought the bled cd yesterday! Finalllly. I've been looking for it everywheree. Havem't listened to all of it yet, but so far its great. But I really wish my cyanide catharsis was on it. I <3 that song so. *tear*

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY...

Saw Harry Potter tres yesterday! What an awesome, awesome movie!! I was quite surprised at how good it actually was. Because the other two movies sucked balls. Mebbe its the new director? dunno. But everyone seriously go see it. .. I command you.

later pretties.

~Andrea

Aunt Jemima rocks my socks.

Thu, 03 Jun 2004 00:15:43 GMT

Damn, haven't written in a while.

This weekend was fun..

Thursday slept over Arias wif the A group..

Friday went bowling with everyone, which is always fun...

"... we're the bowling alley whores,
...let us play with your balls!" ;P

Err.. Saturday hung out with Jarrod the whole day.. My sister bought us these mini bottle vodkas. They were so cute!

..but yeah, I had like two sips and felt sick.

HA. There goes my college social life x.x

Hmm, Sunday.. hiked for like 4 hours.. had a barbeque, watched Shrek...

WAHHHHHH. He is just TOOOOOOOOOO cuuute!!!

I wanna cryy :*(

** Yesterday was me and Jarrod's 10 month.. yay, go us ^_^

- - -

N3KK1D P3NN15 (8:07:27 PM): woo woo woo..review with mrs. black is even better than sex!

... har har har :D

~Andrea

BOOBINATORRR!!!!!

Thu, 27 May 2004 21:57:23 GMT

Holy shit.

I gots meself a four day weekend ahead of me!

kickass. :D

Well the week went by pretty fast.

Got my NYSSMA score.. 98. Not too shabby. Worse than last year.. but I'm not complaining.

Had two concerts this week. First for band. Then for chorus and girl's select chorus.

We sucked ass. But hey, nothing new there. ;P

Ermm.. me n Amanda went to Marion's house after schizool today. We had a big water fight with Joe. He got me and Marion all wet! bastard.. Yeah, we were kinda at a disadvantage since alls we had were pitchers.. x_x
...But, next time we'll def get 'im!

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

I'm sooo bored.

Fuckin A. I'm only 4 hours into my 4 day weekend n I already ran outta things to do...

.. this ought to be fun.

~Andrea

An Ode to Tiger Balm.

Mon, 24 May 2004 01:45:30 GMT

Damn.

Why must the weekend always go by so soon?

We had our second ASHEN practice. WOOO.

I drove to Lets Jam... haha, I almost killed both me and Margo in the process, but we got there.. and hey... turning the car off while its still in DRIVE isn't THAT big of a deal.. :D

After that we picked up Joe.. then I drove all the way to Alto Music.. hehe I'm so proud of myself. So snaps fer me.

The good news is there's a drumset there fer 300 bucks.

The bad news is we only have like 150 bucks.

Hrmm. It'll work out. Hopefully?

Later that night went mini golfing with Jarrod, Marion, n Joe.

All I can say is... boys so sooooo fucking immature.

Which is saying alot. Since I'm quite immature myself. ;P

~Andrea